For a long time I was scared to be myself, my whole self that is. I was your typical people-pleaser, avoiding confrontation. Always positive. Always grateful. Never sad. It was a very extreme way of living and just one side of the coin.
From the outside looking in I was a happy camper. People would see me as...
The life of the party.
I didn't know how to feel negative emotions much. I wouldn't let myself. I was scared and I didn't know where to start. I felt guilty for having negative feelings.
If I was sad, angry or frustrated I would usually just tell myself to be happy and get over it. I would attempt to ease my emotional pain with all sorts of things like over-eating, drinking, spending and other excessive habits that would fill the gaps for a while, but these habits inevitably created more stress and self-sabotage.
My relationships suffered. They were either completely disconnected or codependent. It was one extreme or another.
So, what happened?
I got fed up with pretending and interested in becoming fully self-expressed.
I got fed up with unhealthy patterns repeating themselves, feeling stuck, or burnt out and like something was missing in my life.
Through psychotherapy, private and group coaching programs, meditation and reflective journaling, I have been able to peel back the layers of who I am.
Happy. Sad. All of it.
Every day I devote energy and time to my self-discovery process and what life choices make me feel most fulfilled.
With a Co-Active Coaching Fundamentals Certificate from the Coaches Training Institute (CTI), as well as unique personal life experiences, I am qualified to help guide others through the same self-discovery process, getting them closer and closer to their true self.